13 Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”—14 yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.15 Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.”
Sometimes God’s plan doesn’t make a lot of sense in the moment.
We know that He is always good, always loving, and always working to further the Gospel. And knowing these things means we know His decisions are always wise and best. But that doesn’t mean that we understand how it all works.
For those of you who don’t know, I’m back in Fremont. Yes, that’s right, not in Cambodia. I won’t go into detail (because really, let’s be honest, you don’t need to know every detail), but my prayers for God’s discernment in how to use my time were answered in some strange and surprising circumstances last week, and it was clear that God was directing me home.
(No, don’t worry, I’m not super sick, no one has died, I’m not having an emotional breakdown or anything awful like that!)
It’s not that I don’t love the people of Sobhan or that I have no desire to spread the gospel to the people of Cambodia. I miss Sobhan and the sweet friends I made there. I think about them every day, and I wonder what they are up to. I am so thankful for every moment I had there, even the hard ones. I learned a lot about myself and about NGO management, and I don’t regret going for a moment.
But God has a different plan than I anticipated. I am not trying to figure out all the why’s and wishing things were different. I know God has an even better plan for me, and I am eager to see what’s next.
So that’s the update- hit me up if you want to hear some fun Cambodia stories! I could tell you about that time we thought we bought sparklers but found out they were something much different…or the night we took the kids to their first junior high dance…or the three day wedding across the street…or attempting to catch fish…just ask!
9 The heart of man plans his way,
but the Lord establishes his steps.